6 MINUTES OF GLORY

8 groups, 10 members in each, all started a new journey 3 weeks back......in search of 6 minutes of glory. The motive of all was same--to make their very own first short film for the Cognizant carnival.....Oh! there was so much enthusiasm among all.....the competition was bound to be tough.

Finally it is over!!!! 14th march saw the end of two of the most hectic weeks of my college life till date. It saw 7 groups end up empty handed and one with the honour of representing our college at the prestigious meet of different colleges. Kudos and congrats to them......You really made us proud!!!

Lot was at stake........on one hand there was pride, honour and dream of making it big at first shot and on the other hand there was trust, loyalty, an opportunity to have fun and learn something new. Some chose to make it a gala affair with a picture-perfect movie with assistance from experienced people and some decided to make it an experience of their lifetime, enjoying every moment and taking pride in everything they did……..I respect both the approaches and congrats to all for making such beautiful movies.

The last two weeks have been an eye-opening experience in the true sense. Not only did we learn how to make movies but also it brought out the hidden talent of many……and of course not to forget the true colours of many of our very close friends.

We as humans thrive on success and we are ready to put everything at stake for it. It took two long years to develop a close bonding among all of us based on some small terms like “TRUST”, “HONESTY”, and “LOYALTY”. and it took six mere minutes to break it. into pieces. We all fear failure, so success at the cost of friends is the order of the day……..this is what we term as “PROFESSIONALISM”.

I am no exception…I’m too human and wanted to taste success. So I put my professional life ahead of my personal grudges for the last 3 weeks. I was compelled to take someone in my group whom I hate talking to………someone who played with the emotions of my friends……..someone whom I condemn openly for his/her lose character. I guess that is another aspect of working in a group that I learnt over the last few weeks—COMPROMISE”. I know my action has hurt many and I apologize for it………..Sorry mates if I let you down somewhere.

Personally speaking I was dead against taking ay professional help for the movie. But I have no problem if my friends thought the other way round……..We all have our own opinions but what really hurt me was lack of honesty among many of my friends. Why did they try to hide true facts? Why did they try to divert from the main issue with other controversies( though they were no small controversies and also highlighted the true colours of many which startled me)? We were supposed to be close friends then what stopped them from sharing the truth? I guess we were not trustworthy. I again repeat I had no problem in people taking professional help to make the movie a grand success, but what irritates me is the way my friends ran away from the problem rather than facing it like bold men. I wish you had trusted us………we would have been honoured.

I know all my friends did not want to hide true facts (or else we would not have known ever about all this), but still what is the point in refraining from speaking the truth when it is to bound to come into light someday? Moreover it really hurts when you get to know such bitter facts from someone else…it really hurts my dear friends.

My friends will argue it was not an individual decision and it was unanimously decided to keep the truth as secret…and that is one of the principles of working in a group-to stand by the decision. I have no problem with that too mate. But is it right to misguide your so called friends with innumerable lies? One of my friend says, “There is difference between hiding true facts and being dishonest to keep secrets.” I agree with him…….My anger would not have been so severe had they adapted the first method.

The wounds will surely take some time to heal, but at least my friends had the courage to come up and confess their mistake………….Its better late than never. I understand what might have forced you take such a hasty decision to hide facts, but was it really worthwhile?? Was it right to jeopardize friendship of two long years for a mere video of six minutes?? You can only answer them my friends.

Anyways I am ready to forget everything as a bad dream and start afresh……We were great friends and we remain so………….no more hard feelings………But Please"donot break the TRUST……..because once you take out the letter ‘T’ from the word TRUST…..the RUST is almost impossible to be erased".

IDENTITY CRISIS

I could hear the thunder roaring-

I could see the darkening sky-

I realised the end was beckoning-

An end that was inevitable.

I stood in front of the shattered mirror-

I could not recognise myself,

Who was it?

It was surely not me!

Who am I?

Am I someone

Who wil always remain a loser?

Am I someone 

Who will never be trustworthy?

The truth is- 

I am no one.

I am just an uncivilised animal-

Not fit to be a part of you all.

I am a liar -

Who deserves to be a failure.

Why can't I be like others?

I try my best to be like them-

But I find myself alone-

To sulk in my own pain.

I am a lonely soul-

Who does not desrerve to have friends.

I am like a curse-

Who thrives on the pain of others.

Shame on me-

I do not deserve to be happy.

I know I am not fit to be a part of all-

But I cant change myself-

Hang me for my sins-

Let my death bring an end to this agony.

Oh! please tell me-

Who am I?

Am I just a disgraced soul?

Am I alive but dead.?