FLICKERING HOPE


A hopeful man hopes-
His family survives a deluge.
A drowning man clings on-
To the last hope of survival.
I too hope to rediscover-
My lost happiness.

Yes, my sins are unpardonable-
And I deserve all the pain.
Let my blood flow-
And wash away my sins.
I hope against all hope-
To overcome this unbearable agony.

It is the hope of freedom-
From this suffering.
A hope, that there is light-
At the end of dark tunnel
It is this flickering hope-
That keeps me alive.

I know I am a loser-
Who lost his treasure.
I know I will never get it back,
May be it never belonged to me.
But I still wish-
It was by my side…….

The name of this poem was suggested by a person who was one of my closest friends till last week…….Yes even last week the person was there by my side…..but today I am alone………….I have lost a friend. And this poem is for my “FRIEND”.

Trust me it hurts……..it really hurts to lose a friend but who is to be blamed for it???
None other than myself. May be I did not deserve to have a friend or I was too dependent on the person. May be the person never thought that I was fit to be a friend and was there by my side just for the sake of it. May be I should have realized it and moved away for my friend’s happiness. I have been so selfish……..I thought about myself and not my friend.

But its better late than never. I need to make up for all the mistakes. I HOPE to cope up with this loss….I have to…………..its my last chance to give something back to my friend..or else it will be too late………