LIFE SO FAR

Today when I have nothing to write -
And turn through the pages of my diary,
I relive my past days-
A past that made me smile,
And made me feel at peace.
A past that made me realize how wrong I was,
And actually how lonely I was.
A past which made me hard as a rock,
As the tears of my eyes dried.
How can I forget such a past?
A past that prepared me for the present.

Today when I have no more stories to tell-
And go through my poems,
I can clearly see my present-
A present where I have learnt to remain silent,
And let things fall into place.
A present Where I make myself happy,
When I see others smiling.
A present that has taught me not to expect anything,
And never crave for anything.
A present that has made me stronger,
And find happiness in this solitude.
How can I neglect such a present?
A present that will determine my future.

With all the blemishes and pains-
Of the present and the past out of the way,
As I think about my future-
A future that appears to be bleak,
That may only see me suffer,
A future about which I have no answers-
Will I have happiness or only tears?
A future which I am scared to face-
Because I am tired of loneliness,
Oh! the Almighty what does the future really hold for me?
Will I smile or only see others smiling?