Wednesday, March 5, 2008

FEAR

As I stand at the end of the tunnel-
Surrounded by complete darkness.
I feel the emptiness around me,
I can feel the solitude gripping me.
As I see her disappear-
I can feel the fear.
The fear of being a failure,
That made me a failure.

Bruised and battered in the battle,
Drenched completely in blood.
I fight a lonely battle,
Against my immense pain and struggle.
I wish she was there,
To save me from my fear.
The fear of being a failure,
That made me a failure.

It was I who decided myself,
That I did not deserve to get her.
So I decided to be silent,
And just be like any other friend.
I had to suppress my feelings for her,
Just because of my fear.
The fear of being a failure,
That made me a failure.

Today I have no more hope,
To get her back.
Because I dug a deep hole for myself,
And cannot even ask anyone for help.
Because it was I who decided,
To remain silent against my fear.
The fear of being a failure,
That made me a failure.

I had suppressed my feelings,
Just to see her smiling.
I was ready to face the pain,
If she stood to gain.
So I could not disclose my love for her,
Just because of my fear.
The fear of being a failure,
That made me a failure.

Today as I stand at the end of the tunnel,
Surrounded by complete darkness.
I wish I was a little brave,
And thought about myself.
Then I would not have to cry,
And could have fought against my fear.
The fear of being a failure,
That made me a complete failure.